Jer went back to work last week on Monday, and I've been flying solo with 4 kids during the day when he's working. Thank God he gets home close to dinner time to save the day, because at that time everyone seems to be a little maxed out, or maybe it's just me.
Hannah will be 4 weeks old tomorrow - Seriously?! Where did August go? I think somewhere between sleepless nights, 3 big kids that are early risers, and a sweet baby that eats every 2 to 2.5 hours, I have just been flying by the seat of my pants, and lots of God's grace and mercy for each SECOND of the day. Even with everything being a big, fat blur, I have enjoyed these fleeting moments. Holding baby #4 - sweet Miss Hannah, makes me realize even more just how fleeting these days are, even if they seem long and hard, I know in my heart that the years are short and they fly by incredibly fast.
Hannah is an incredibly easy baby, well that is when this Momma steers clear of anything with lactose in it. She does not tolerate that at all - poor thing. She is still sleeping only 2.5 - 3 hr stretches at night, and when I have had anything with lactose, a 2.5 - 3 hours stretches of sleep turn into 2.5 - 3 hours of dealing with a fussy baby with a belly ache. Thank God I have experience with lactose intolerant babies (Josh & Grayson) so I know what to do to fix it...avoid it...hard to do though, especially avoiding that ice cream on these last warm Summer/Autumn evenings. Miss Hannah is content and seems to enjoy having all the kids ooohing and aahhing over her. She is for sure a snuggle bug, at least for now. She is a spittin' image of her Momma's baby pictures, it's wild, even I feel like I am looking at myself as a baby 30 years ago. She is a good little eater and is filling out those smootchable cheeks of hers.
Grayson is kinda hitting a hard time with all this "family of 6" stuff, especially now that Daddy has gone back to work and Momma's attention is a little more divided, even though the love I have for my kids has only multiplied. I think he misses our old daily routine and therefore has acted out a little more than we're used to. We're all adjusting... On a good note: Grayson
adores his baby sister Hannah and he still is a Momma's boy.
Josh and Saray turned
4 on August 29th and 30th. We had a super simple party outside on our front lawn/neighbor's fun driveway with their cousins and a few friends. It was nearly 90 degrees at 6:30pm so we stuck with the popsicles, water, and rice krispy treats. It was perfect and they seemed to enjoy it all.
How is it possible that I have two 4 year old twins now? Wasn't it just yesterday that I was up at night with 2 little sweet babies and kissing their baby toes and chubby cheeks?
These days instead of reading "Becoming Baby Wise" I am now reading "Love and Logic magic for early childhood", so we can help them become the kids (and someday adults) that God wants them to be. I am so tired of sending empty threats and several warnings and tossing all my "control" out the window with those things, so reading this book is helping me keep some of my sanity and they are learning that I am strong in love and discipline, and in that they remain secure. It's a constant battle, but we're on the road to better days.
I have to say, I am still shocked that I am now a Momma of FOUR KIDS, 4 years and under. My how God has done a marvelous work in our lives so far. I don't deserve His goodness or his grace...but man, am I thankful for His everlasting love and grace that sees beyond my selfish little heart and flaws.
God you are good, and all I have belongs to you...I am not the owner, I am just your steward...help me to be the Mother, Wife, daughter, sister, friend, person you want me to be. I am nothing without You...